I saw you today, and I saw myself. I saw sleepless nights of rocking, swaying, and lullabies, and 4 a.m.s that greet you all too quickly. I saw mornings filled with cereal, Elmo, and sippy cup spills. I saw afternoons of finger painting, tent building, and nap count downs.
I saw you today, and I was willing to bet, that like me, you have a laundry room full of neglected clothes..some of which have not fit you in years. I bet you may have a ceiling fan that needs to be dusted and a kitchen stove that could benefit from a nice scrubbing. I bet there are weeds that need to be pulled in your yard and floors that could stand to be mopped.
I saw you today, and I wondered if you ever felt like me. Overwhelmed. Exhausted. Alone. And yet extremely happy. My nails may not be done. My hair has not been cut in over a year. I cannot tell you the last time I had a solid sleep or ate a hot meal. I have moments where I want to run away. There are times I tell my girls if they keep this up, I am going to sell them to the gypsies. Some days, I even offer to sell myself to the gypsies. Even so, I would not trade this life for anything in the world.
I saw you make your way to the day care door, and I knew you probably were faced with the same dilemma as me. Can I manage to pry this door open with my foot? My hip? If I put my arm here and my head there, can I keep this door open? Am I able to do this all without loosing one of my own extremities or those of my children? These "hands-full" mom maneuvers put a mean game of Twister to shame, and I knew that as you made your way to the door, like me, you were probably devising a plan.
And as I looked at you, I wanted to hug you, high five you, tell you how awesome you were, but instead, as we made our way to that day care door, all I could do was hold it open for you. A simple act...so simple, that I am not even sure if it qualifies as an Act of Kindness. You looked up at me with a smile and said, "Oh, thank you. You have your hands full too."
It is true, my hands were full.
But as I watched you make your way past me, I hoped you knew, if even for a minute, that you were not alone..that even simple acts of kindness are all around you.
P.S. You are awesome!
P.S. You are awesome!